What's the nature of an agony?

My pain isn't bigger today
Than it was yesterday
It is not lower either
It is not just exactly the same 

It's like a continuation

Today's pain
Added
To yesterday's one

The unsolved
Mystery


The same
Black blood
Boiling

Wondering on the question
Of your
Implication
The degree
and the stake

Your blindness
Digging
My stomach
Merciless

You don't see
The abyss
That I see
The unspeakable
Despair
Of seeing
What you don't

I am
No more
Never again

We are
No more
Never again

The comforting
'One'
The thought
Of our entireness

Destroyed 
Reduced to crumbs

All alone
All along

Just a delightful
Blinding illusion

So easily broken
By some bewitching
Other stranger's words
Giving me 
Nausea
The importance
Things 
Can so easily take
In an unconscious
Affront

The night
Invariably
Swallows
The black scribbles
Meekly
Inevitably
Into exploding nightmares

Then a silence
An interlude
or a respite
Bringing
In unconsciousness
The illusion
Of a peacefulness
That a white dawn
Spreads again
Into the veins

Slowly
Progressively
painfully back
To the evidences

To face
The daily fight

And your carefree
Amazing capacity
To hurt
Without meaning it

Taking back in a breath
The Power
You have accurately
Endowed her with

Her power has become
Your strength
Her weakness
And your wishes
As her lover
Her dependance

Reflecting on
The both parts of a whole
Spoken into the mouth of guests
Drinking wine
At a Symposium